I am Cleaning with my thoughts about using people (especially young women) to be a stand-in for a character in the fantasy life in my head.
I am Cleaning with my experience of having no motivation to relate to people, no friends, no social skills and no family that I care about.
I am Cleaning with my experience of not knowing how to talk normally to people.
I am Cleaning with my thoughts about feeling like a phoney, a pretender, a liar, a scammer who exploits and uses others, just getting by, with no love, no relationships, no emotions, and no feelings, nothing.
I am Cleaning with my thoughts about maybe having bowel/rectum cancer and a severe heart condition, but I am not even considering investigating.
I am sorry, please forgive me for anything in me that is not Love.
I am sorry, please forgive me for anything in me that may be contributing to my experience of this problem.