am sorry, please forgive me for anything in me that may be contributing to my experience of seeing my companion A. in extreme stress and breaking down b’cos of heart problems, Blood Pressure and Diabetes.
I am Cleaning with my THOUGHTS ABOUT how unsupported and lost I will be if anything happens to him, feeling extreme fear and insecurity about life, feeling the pressure and resignation he is feeling in his life, experiecing pain and sorrow for losing the relationship and him, mind thinking of the worst possiblities, loosing faith on divine for making our lives from bad to worse every passing day, no respite and no positivity in life but only never ending struggles.
I am Cleaning with my EXPERIENCE OF not being able to see my companion or live with him, seeing him dying every moment and we both feeling helpless, my life having no anchoring or support, no job, no work, no home, being alone in a big city and struggling alone, feelign overwhelmed and desperate.
I am sorry, please forgive me for anything in me that is not Love.
I am sorry, please forgive me for anything in me that may be contributing to my experience of this problem.
